:l . i totally have lots to say,
but i can't. mom broke my heart
today on the phone!): . she has the
HEART to break it.i don't even feel;
being her mother anymore. i know she
loves me.and now,i started crying again?
why am i such a crybaby over a small matter?
SHIT.I know,i know;Allah hears this and looks
at me everytime,but please god,at least look
what I am writing here... ):

after a fun day in school,i confirmed it'll
be a bad day in home. complains,scoldings.
everyday is just the same.why can't their
attitudes or their lives change? i'm so upset
when my mother told her words over me.
i can't believe it.it always happen like this.
WHY GOD,WHY?WHY MUST MY LIFE
BE LIKE THIS?SUFFERING.she gave me
pain all day.

tears are now rolling down my cheeks.
what a nice conversation i had in the phone
with mom just now.very nice.keep it up.continue
to do that until i die.my mom said she would love
me till her end of her life.she didn't promise it.
i don't think so she will fulfill that promise to
me.it's all a FAKE.

had NAPFHA test today. :l . after i finished my
5 things , i was bored.so some water spilled
on the hall floor,so looked around and made a
heart with brushes and sploshy things and
below the heart was drops falling down.i had
nothing to do so the heart looks like Y
with brushes on it and the flowy thingy.
umm,well,i've nothing to say now...

im totally in a BAD mood.why does she
HAVE TO DO THESE KINDS OF THINGS?
just to break my heart and hurt my ear?
WHAT THE FUCK. tears are rolling down my
cheeks , AGAIN. goodbye for now,bloggie.

- adeelahs. :/